i went out a few minutes ago and realized that i don't feel safe walking outside our house anymore. i used to be walking outside with my cousins when they were still living in the compound. where we live is relatively peaceful and quiet. we'ld usually go out after dinner for a stroll or to buy beer or go around banawe looking for something to eat. i went out around 7 in the evening with our househelp and for some reason i felt really scared. i have never felt this way because this is where i grew up. weird.