we have had a "Christmas tradition" and i have lost count on how many years we have been doing it, but this year we broke the tradition. My mom, ate, borgy and i with the amelia's angels were suppose to go here for rest and recreation but when i woke up this morning, my mom said she was tamad to drive and so we decided not to go anymore.

so, Christmas day for me was...sleep, sleep again, dinner at kaya and then sleep again. it was time to make up for all the puyat i have been doing. and right now i could still use a few more hours of sleep.

this years Christmas was different, i believe this is my saddest Christmas to date. i know i shouldn't be sad because Christmas is a time of Celebration but i guess as much as i try to divert my mind to "happy things" it didn't really last long and i was always going back to thinking "sad things". i guess i could never really deny the emptiness and confusion i am feeling right now.

but, life goes on. all the presents have been opened, all the kids are happy with the gifts they got, no more food in the table but alot of leftover food in the fridge and since life is a cycle Christmas na ulit in 364 days. till next Christmas...