i got this from mica and it is really beautiful...perfect for me and i guess for a lot of other people who have to close cycles and open a new one.
yes..to all my friends and relatives im closing a cycle. ending the tears and FINALLY moving on with my life. it would be difficult but i would not be answering any questions about this moving on or even with what has happened. i have a lot of other things to look forward to and like everybody else i do have a life.
my thank you to all those who have been with me through this tough times...my drinking buddies...my closing cycles doesn't mean no more drinking though. i could never payback but now i know who my true friends are.

Closing Cycles
by:Paolo Coelho
One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying
longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the
other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending
chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the
moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving
relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live
abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a
long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't
take another step until you find out why certain things that were so
important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your
parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister,
everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on
with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.None of us
can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to
understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we
cannot for ever be children,late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor
towards our parents,lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone
who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things
pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it
is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give
lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at
home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible
world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories
also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let
things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life
with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect
anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your
genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.Stop turning on your
emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one
that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning
you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love
relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no
starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal
moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell
yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was
a time when you could live without that thing or that person nothing is
irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even
be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of
pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your
life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.