i saw how a baby who was 28 weeks old fought to live and eventually died.

it made me realize how short life is. it made me realize how lucky i am that i am able to experience how it is to live. and that even if life is not a bed of roses--life is beautiful.

at one point, i thought of why such a young baby should be inside an incubator fighting to live. on why his parents didn't bring him to a bigger hospital where he had better chances of living. but then again he did serve a purpose. he gave his parents a lesson. he gave everyone around him that day a lesson. he may have lived for only 11 hours, but in those 11 hours he has touched my heart.

i will not understand right now how it is to lose a child. i will not understand the pain his parents felt. what i know is that his parents may have lost a son but they have earned an angel in heaven.

and to you chester bryan (we baptized him!), my prayers will always be with your family that you have left behind. that your bothers and sisters will live a good life. and that in time no one else will die because of ignorance and poverty.

27 last 1.20.2006

i don't feel like im 27...

alot of people say i don't look my age (tee hee!) and that i look younger (ahem,this is my blog and i am allowed to write anything,hehehe).

when i woke up on my birthday, i actually can't believe that i was already 27. i can still remember my 18th bday. i can still remember my birthday when erap was ousted from office. how time flies! but then again wether you like it or not everyone has to grow old.

i had fun this year though. unlike last year when i had a very quiet birtday. this year it was back to normal since i again had a small party at home. it was a very long day though...my day started at 4.30 am--how i wished i could still stay in bed but since my leave from work was not approved i was left without a choice. i bought red ribbon spaghetti for the people in the office and then after work we went to terriyaki boy for lunch. i headed home right after and prepared for the party at home for family. after dinner we went to sienna high school fair for about 30 mins (grabe,blast from the past!). rode the caterpillar with cousins--ang saya! went back home...had some drinks. and party/birthday ended past twelve. kawawa lang kasi two of my cousins lost their side mirrors! thats the disadvantage of living near banawe. had the chance to sleep before 2am na and then i had to go to duty at 6am the next day. but i am not complaining. i had a great day..feels good to be 27 and i am looking forward to a wonderful year!

pictures posted here.

woohoo to 2006!

new year's eve was a B-L-A-S-T!

aside from the usual callo's, lasagne, barbeque, dinuguan and atbp--japanese was served too. turn's out everyone loves japanese food.

and new year's eve would not be complete without booze.

party hostess was tetet-- it was suppose to be a polka dot themed party and could i say that she was well prepared for the night,outfit wise.

and since most of us were not in a polka dot attire, we just sticked gold coins on our shirts!

everyone had fun waiting for 12 midnight and the annual countdown...

a thirteen year-old even got drunk from drinking vodka.

it surely was the perfect way to say goodbye to 2005 and welcome 2006!

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goodbye 2005, welcome 2006!

2005 is coming to a close. today, in fact is my last working day for the year (yoohoo!). i had ALOT of learnings in 2005. im praying though that 2006 would be a better year for me. im looking forward to many things for 2006.

Top 10 Things to look forward to in 2006

1. Dad coming home for good.
2. Hospital Exposure + Nursing Care Plan=more sleepless night
3. My nth birthday....uhoh, im getting old.
4. Capping and pinning ceremony in February
5. Work opportunities...im slacking at work though. have to shape up.
6. A boracay trip or a vacation either in bacolod or dumaguete
7. Passing revalida with flying colors (im not gonna settle for a pwede na grade hehehe!).
8. ate mai coming home for a vacation ( come home! come home! dad is here).
9. A fruitful 2006 (kick ass year sabi nga ni len)
10. A paskong pinoy in 2006 (hehehe...christmas ulit!)

with all this in mind, isn't 2006 something to look forward too?

Happy New Year to ALL!!!!

on my post christmas and birthday wish list




i want this phone!!!!

wowo and wawa

December has always been special. Aside from Christmas, December is also the birth month of wowo and wawa.

it's has always been nice to see old people in love. i love seeing my wowo and wawa together. wawa would not eat if wowo was not yet home. wowo would not eat if it was not wawa who prepared the food or at least supervised the cooking. wawa would be waiting for wowo if he goes out to play cards or golf with friends.

i had a groovy wowo. a grandfather who wears levis maong jeans, colehaan shoes, benetton,ralph lauren and lacoste shirts. not only was he groovy but also he was the best golfer his age. i remember during my cousins wedding my wowo was so tensed as he was to walk her down the aisle. he kept on asking me if he looked old with his barong and i kept on telling him that he looked 60 and could still pass as my cousins dad.

i had a wonderful wawa. the best cook! she had the best stories and she was someone you could just sit with for hours and you’d never notice time pass by. i remember her bringing us to the "palengke" every time we were on vacation and of how proud she was of her apo's. my wawa had a big heart...a very big one.

i miss having my grandparents...i uberly miss going to Victorias on summer break or Christmas break. i miss wowo going to manila every so often. i miss going to sm city and eat halo-halo with him at icebergs. i miss bringing him milk at night. i miss the inasal and pandesal he would bring home every afternoon every time we were on vacation. i miss wawa's afternoon stories. and on how she supported us when we were selling mais con hielo one summer vacation. i miss her love and affection. i miss going to church with her.

my wawa had a battle with liver cancer; wowo had lung cancer. wowo had a stroke during wawa's wake. he was never able to recover probably mainly due to depression. he left us a year and 3 months after wawa.

often times i wish i had the chance to spend more time with them. and that i have told wowo and wawa how much i love them and how special they are to me. i sometimes think on how great it could have been if my children to be could meet their great grandparents. but all i have now are stories/memories to share and values to impart.

in my grandparents i saw what real love is (well, aside from my parents). i saw in them how it is to be old and in love. what we are now i know we owe to them. they have instilled in us the importance of family.

i heart you wowo and wawa. i will see you both again.

after completing the 21 stickers and gaining 20 lbs (exagerration!), i finally got hold of my starbucks 2006 planner yesterday morning.



now my sister is asking me to help her complete the stickers....and since christmas season naman i think i have a reason to gain a few more pounds, hehehe! cheers to more toffe nut latte and hot peppermint mocha!

shoutout: happy birthday to mama grace and dennis!

i cried the other night...

the other night's end to the amazing race family made me cry. and by far, this season though the most boring (for me) is also the most heart warming. i would have wanted the gaghan's to win, but since they lost early on the game, i thought i would not find any group that i would want to win. i was wrong! i saw myself cheering for the bransen's and hating the weavers (good thing they came in last!).
the linz finished the last task first and ended up winning but i guess the real winner of the day was the bransen's. they are winners bec at the end of the race they have realized how special their dad is to them. and how much their dad treasures them and how much he tried to finish the race with the girls. at some stages of the game he did have a hard time catching up with the girls. i was so touched when the three girls with their dad was running to the finish line, holding hands and reminding him of how proud the girls were of him. awww....such a touching scene. how i wish they would have won the million dollars but then again it's not all about the money.

THIS IS IT!!! i will hopefully graduate by 2007. long way to o...so many things to study, accomplish and complete but i know with God's help i can finish.

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chimpmunks roasting on an open fire...christmas is so near! i had my first christmas party last saturday for 2005--NCO's white christmas at party central. haloween party was more fun though...but more friends came to the christmas party. after the party we went to guilly's for some more partying. pictures posted here.

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PANIC MODE. malls are packed everyday and i have not done any christmas shopping yet. goodluck sa akin. ugh!

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Clinical rotation has started already. first on my rotation is community rotation. i had to miss work for 2 days because the schedule was moved 1pm to 8am. so thursday morning, i headed to Caloocan community health department. ate emma (classmate and school partner in crime) and i got there early, had to wait for the instructors to arrive, wait again for the other students to finish their orientation, wait some more and finally at 10 am orientation started. we didn't have a hard time going home thursday so i was pretty confident that we won't have a hard time going home the next day either. i was SO wrong. from the city hall of caloocan we took a tricycle since we could not find an available cab. we asked the trike driver to bring us to where we could get a cab. in 10 minutes we were in God know's where, 50 pesos poorer but still no cab in sight. but meron ulit trike! so we asked again where he could bring us na may cab and the manong driver said he could bring us to 5th ave. that sounded good because that would be near c3 already. so we rode the trike again, this time on our way to 5th ave. 40 pesos poorer, we got to 5th ave. but with the rain to blame, wala pa din cab. ate emma was in a hurry bec she still had to go to work and i too. but i guess a bit of luck was still on our side, a tricycle was again in sight!

me: manong, hanggang saan po ang biyahe nyo?
driver: saan ba kayo?
me: sto domingo, quezon ave po kami e.
driver: sige, sakay na. hatid ko kayo dun

shocked, i rode the trike and in 10 minutes i found myself along del monte. ate emma dropped me off, manong dropped her off sto domingo corner quezon ave. para kami nasa amazing race!

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due to lack of sleep and so many things to do i made my things to do board....



things are sometime still left undone but atleast i do have a reminder board to keep me updated and to remind me of things. schedule is crazy and i can't wait for the semester to finish...opps, i have summer classes pala.

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since hindi ako kasya sa ppg umbrella ko...i decided to hang it sa bedroom ceiling ko. right above my bed. so cute!



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i better stop blogging and get back to doing my case presentation for school....atleast we do have a christmas break. that is something to look forward too.

the book of answers....

of course no one else but GOD could answer my questions, but this book i want!

bits and pieces

.::finally, had the chance to watch flightplan saturday night with edsel. had dinner at gerry's after. so nice to have a break after a very tiring week!

.::we picked up three from the airport sunday morning and had lunch with tito sonny and family. we then went to intercon and after getting some rest went back to our house for dinner. after dinner we went to music match in tomas morato. had so much fun with cousins! pictures posted here.

.::i have a new powerpuff umbrella! so cute!

.::migs ayeza to perform on saturday's ad congress award's night...i asked mica to take pictures of him already.

.::constantine maroulis will be at greenbelt 3 lobby on thursday evening...i will be on makati thursday night to go out with cousins. hopefully i get to take a peek of him and hear him sing.

.::i will still be tutoring lea and found a way already on who will teach her tuesday's when my schedule does not allow me to go home anymore after work. my mom will tutor her every tuesday. hehehehe....

.::i will officially start school today. and im so tamad!!!

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happy weekend!!!

looong weekend....nah!

life can sometimes be unfair. while everyone else had to enjoy long weekends (last weekend and this weekend), i like everyone else who works for call centers had to go to work. boo! buti na lang may extra pay...atleast may konting motivation!

it was my first halloween party with rmh and it was fun! party was the 30th of october and we partied till 2am...pictures to follow.

and while my family was in baguio for the all saints day weekend, i was left at home with ate (our househelp) because i had to go to work. lucky me edsel was around, so sunday afternoon was spent with him. doing errands for his sister, going to the grocery and eating jollibee for merienda. he had to go home around 6pm though since he had work the next day. the rest of the day/night was spent sleeping...sleeping...and sleeping.

studio 23 had a 24 marathon and this was the first time i actually watched the show. edsel told me that the show was nice but i never really got interested. tuesday morning, i had nothing to do so i watched one episode and that one episode kept me glued that i totally forgot that i had to go to work that night. so with no decent sleep i went to work again tuesday evening. now i can't wait to get a copy of 24 season 2 and 3 and whatever else is available. 168 here i come!

i am now officially enrolled for second semester! i was supose to resign from work and just be a full time student but i decided to have a part time morning schedule at work and it matches my school schedule perfectly! the thing is i will be at work from 6am to 1pm the latest and then i have school from 2:30 to 9:30 pm. this is like everyday except sunday. i officially start hospital rotation in december also. i hope everything works out well. im pretty excited since i saw a lot of friends from my old school enrolling at pchs. they too decided to transfer because of conflict with work schedules.

but i realized that with work and school...how do i get to find time to tutor lea! i guess i would have to tell her mom to look for a new tutor. patay ako! pero hindi na talaga kaya ng powers ko...too bad coz i really would want to continue on tutoring her. not anymore for the extra income but since i know that the kid really needs help. i know i should not compare her to amboy but i can't help but do that. kasi naman medyo slow talaga sya....project lea (parang project embrace) ko pa naman sya. that i get to improve her reading skills at least before she hits 3rd grade. pero how?!?!? want to take over sassa?

next week, i am to start a new work schedule. no more night differential pay for me. good thing here is i will be having the same work schedule with edsel so i could go to work with him everyday and we have the same rest day!yey!

i am hoping to watch flightplan later. most probably at greenhills. this time last year i was in bora with cousins...and i have been dreaming of bora. wish i could go back next year the latest.

im blabbing...i better go back to work! happy weekend!

they blocked friendster, gmail, yahoo mail, and softhome from here sa office. funny nga kasi even the hotmail website which is an msn site has been blocked. good thing i can still access blogger and blogsites. now i'm thinking of having SMART WiFi installed at home. i'm just not sure if it's worth it or if it is even fast talaga and if i'm gonna get my money's worth. maybe i can talk my mom into dropping one of our phonelines and just get signed up for highspeed internet. hehehe.....

168...Again!
i went to 168 last Sunday with mommy and ate peach. with a budget of 1500 in mind i was able to buy 2 capri pants, 2 shirts, if only dvd, one hundred pesos worth of kikay stuff, coloring books and crayons for my team mates and spent only 1,100....im super happy with my buys. and i am definitely coming back! sino gusto sumama?

re-run
thank God for morning and afternoon re-run's of axn, etc and star world tv shows. been watching psi factor,numb3rs,the OC,one tree hill,the apprentice, and tru calling. im such a TV addict. aside from that i i always make sure that i get to watch the live telecast of survivors and AR family. what would i do without television.

40 months and counting....

That's When I Love You

When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my moind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what

LOVE HATE LETTER

Dear Amiel

Sino ang crush mo,pwede ba wag mo na ako kausapin o pansinin ayoko na galit na ko sayo wala ako sayo pake (with a drawing of a smiling face). wag mo nako mahalin hindi narin kita mamahalin hangang field trip wag mo ko tignan ako ren hindi kita titignan.
humanap ka ng ibang babe siya ang mahalin mo gilit na ko sayo mainit na ulo ko wag mo ko inisin ha mag promise ka na hindi mo na yon gagawin ako nag promise na ako sayang panaman may kanta pa naman ako sayo wala tapos na tayong dalawa hinid na kita mamahalin mahalin mo yan Frances na yan mag sama kayo wag tayong dalawa.
kase crush ka ni Frances diba masama mang loko? Bakit ka ng loloko kaya nga tinuturuan tayo ng Religion about God our father parang hindi ka natututo

naisa

.::amboy received the letter at school this morning. the letter is sooo funny. napagod din ako magbasa kasi walang period! it was obvious na galit si naisa kasi diretso lang ang letter. both amiel and naisa are in grade 2. nakakaloka ang mga bata!

had the chance to go see friends from rcbc savings that i miss and love dearly last friday. both jing (based in US) and gaspie (based in cebu) were here in manila. we had so much fun talking and reminiscing rcbcsb conversion days. i miss the days when we had to just stay at the head office to do nothing. go to megamall and take 3 hours lunch break (bad!). and the provincial trips and the saturday training we facilitated for the branch personnels. next time i do hope marlou and dinah could join us. plus ms cecille and agustine.



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i was to meet gaspie at the quezon ave station of mrt and then we had to go to jing's hse in fairview. so edsel and i went to abs first. as we were to enter the building, i saw aaron standing outside. i find the child star so adorable and cute, next to bj or more popularly known as "lito" (the kid from the tide commercial). i just had to say hi. when i said hi he was so nice and said "hello din po". i just could not resist it and asked him if i could have my picture taken with him. he then replied "pwede po, asan na ang phone mo?". i told him that my phone didn't have a camera but i had my digital camera with me. i then took a solo picture of him and then he told his dad, "daddy, tayo naman!". the dad said "hindi anak, kayo ang picturan ko". after the short pictorial we had. i said my thank you and goodbye and he said "thank you din po and yngat ka po". he was so sweet. promise na starstruck ako.





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watched the pilot episode of amazing race 8 wednesday morning. it was B-O-R-I-N-G! it was for 2 hours and for the first time since i started watching AR na bore talaga ako...big disappoinment. im rooting for the Gaghan family though. billy and carissa are so cute!

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watched the first game of the best of three uaap finals game between DLSU and FEU. im happy FEU won. im not a FEU alumni, i even took up MBA units in lasalle but after one of the team managers hit arwind santos at the back of his head with his fist they deserve to lose the series. sayang i like coach franz pumaren pa naman. but sore losers don't deserve to win. the team even deserves to be penalized with what the manager did. GO TAMARRAWS!

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special note to sassa....pictures of mama san's bday now posted here. miss you cuz!

me and my juan and only



more weekend kwento to follow...im soooo sleepy!

.:: went to a car show at the forum near picc last friday with edsel. not so impressive though. i loved the vintage cars and remembered wowo's old cars sa victorias. how i wish someone have thought of preserving his cars. looking forward to next weekend's car show date with edsel this time at megamall.

.::watched cinderella man at rockwell after. since i am a boxing fan i enjoyed the movie. it is a story of facing life's daily hardships. putting food on the table and keeping the family together. truly inspiring. i will be watching perfect catch this friday with my perfect catch (*winks* too mushy...).

.::i usually sleep between 8 to 9 in the morning and make sure to be up before 12pm as leah (the kid im tutoring) arrives at 1pm. this afternoon was no different but as i was channel surfing i saw my aunt from LA on national tv watching wowowee! she was even doing the wowowee hand signal. hehehe....

.::migs of rockstar inxs suffered the same fate as that of jasmine trias in american idol. i wonder if he will also end up doing a mc donald's or a bench commercial? nak ng teteng! but infairness, he was really good. and i thought that he was going to win.

.::i missed the first episode of survivors. i was waiting for the live feed at studio 23 last friday but for some reason, they didn't show the live telecast. i hope that does not happen next wednesday for the amazing race family.

two days off from work, was tiring but fun!

thursday....
.::straight from work, went with mama san to the grocery to buy ingredients for the spaghetti i will be preparing for her birthday. correct sassa...i COOKED spaghetti for mama san's bday.
.::after breakfast, we went to pick up amboy from school at 10AM and then i prepared the reviewer for the tutoring session and after the ingredients to be used for the spaghetti.
.::started tutoring before 12pm. finished around 2:30. i was so sleepy waiting for them to finish answering the reveiwer. while "my students" were reviewing for a topic i fell asleep for about 15 mins! bad tutor!
.::had lunch/merienda around 4pm with mama san, amboy and edsel. verdict:delicious spaghetti. pasado for a newbie like me. thanks to the delmonte kitchenomics receipe.
.::edsel went home before 6pm. i thought i was gonna get a chance to get some sleep. but i had to go out to buy something for my mom. was back home by 7pm. had the chance to FINALLY get some sleep.
.::was up before 9pm. went to mama san's house to open the "beer house"
.::was asleep before 12mn.

friday...
.::up early...had to prepare reviewer. ang hirap pala mag tutor. and i thought it was easy!
.::tutor for the day started early since i was going out with edsel. buti na lang exam for the next day was easy. language and filipino only.
.::was out of the house before 3pm. went to the bank first with edsel and then went to chocolate kiss to buy ms mayen (happy birthday!) a cake.
.::visited ibank morato (i miss my old office). and then off we went to greenhills to watch a movie.
.::watched the red eye. was a so-so movie. wala naman na choice e.
.::was suppose to have dinner at metrowalk pero super traffic so we went to marina in timog instead.
.::was home by 2am.

saturday...
.::was up and ready to go to 168 by 8am!
.::the tuaño's invaded 168. we were there from 11am to 5pm. shopping gallore...shoppers haven talaga and ung 2K mo sobrang dami mo mabibili. not that i spent that much....because i didn't. it was judging from what mica and ate peach were able to buy.
.::im at the office right now. dead tired and sleepy but no choice...i can sleep later naman. can't wait till next thurs and friday.